I'm Incredibly Hopeful...And A Little Worried

Okay, so now I'm a bit more rested, if not more settled. Coming back from a long trip is always a little weird but in this case the peculiarities of my return have been particularly pronounced. Since stepping off the plane I've discovered a major maintenance problem with my place that I needed to address ASAP, my car needs some minor (but moderately pricey) repairs and the financial news coming from the publishing industry just gets worse and worse. On the flip side there seem to be more well-connected Hollywood types who are interested in doing something with my books and my son is doing extremely well with his studies and continues to make progress in...well, all the areas he needs to make progress in.

With the welcoming in of our new president coupled with an economic crisis it feels like the country is in the grips of both fervent hope and intense fear. And I can count myself among those hopeful/fearful people. Not just because of the new political/economic climate but because of my own personal circumstances. I am very hopeful about the success of Lust, Loathing And A Little Lip Gloss. It's good. I know it's good. Usually after I've finished a book I can only think of what I should have done to make it better and the fact that I'm not thinking that way now assures me that I'm not deluding myself in regards to the quality of my work. But I'm scared that Barnes & Noble and Borders' desperate need to shrink their inventories could affect my ability to get good placement in the bookstores. That could theoretically sink my sales. In addition to that it would appear that I have finally found the courage to be part of a real committed relationship and I have so much hope that the two of us will have a happy life together. But I'm scared because I've been here before and as most of you know it didn't turn out too well. Also, my son is doing better than he has in a very long time but I'm worried that the medication he's taking may have some heretofore unknown side effects that will negatively impact his long term health.

There are a lot of people who would tell me to just think positively. Believe everything's going to turn out wonderfully and it will. Again, been there, done that and guess what? Bad things sometimes happen to good people even if they write/say daily positive affirmations and read The Secret. But on the flip side I can't say that my prospects are in any way gloomy. I'm thrilled with the number of possibilities and opportunities that have been opening up to me lately and I'm going to do whatever I can to take advantage of every one of them.

So I'm hopeful...and scared...and excited and oh so nervous.

Who knows? Maybe that just makes me normal.

Kyra Davis
Bestselling Author of:
The Sophie Katz Murder Mystery Seris,
and
SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING
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